Recent Life

This post starts with a title gave by soo yen~
Must rmb 22th of July~ Is a task given by me from Soo Yen since i was form 4.
Yeah~ wished her happy birthday every year since dat~ Even though we din meet alot~
Am i a good friend to be with? The answer is with u all~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOO YEN !!!

So im updating my blog today~ Actually im tired. But i dont know how to let myself down to the bed. Knock myself? NAH~ Im the one with logistic and pessimistic thinking. I learned to face reality. Since i made a theory.

A question rose in my head when i was going to watch ice age 3
The group that going to see ice age 3 can be categorised into 3 groups.

1) rich uncle and aunty
2) kids
3) teenager

From my observations- Uncle and Aunty enjoy the most with the jokes followed by teenager and at last kids. WHy?
1st deduction~ Teenager and kids going. Right! Normal.
2nd dedcution~ Why Uncle and Aunty are going?

The following is my theory~ please dont feel offensed.
According to my theory~ Every single man in this earth knows how to play
But when age increased. Man's ability to play tends to decrease.
This is because man learned how to face reality and not to dream of miracles.
In front of the reality, miracles doesnt exist.
Slowly~ man carries more and more responsible when their age increase as they learned to face reality. Happily ever after never exist in the real world. And they have no time to play. Consequently~ man loses its ability to play.

This explained why uncle ad aunty enjoy the most compared to teenager and kids.
Because they had lost their abiity to play. And they forgot how to play.
Thats why simple jokes reminds them the way of playing. The way to laugh~
Laugh symbolised play~ Right?

So this is part of what i am thinking.
So am I~ I lost my enthusiasm on playing. And I felt responsibility coming in~
It is time to let me carry everything by myself isnt it?
Im 18, going to be 19.
Have to depend on myself for everything~ Is that it?

I have to thank someone that helps me alot in my life for the last 2 years.
SPM? MUET? I take them like ntg is going on~ 11As in SPM and Band 4 in Muet without hard work? Why I am able to do these? Coz someone calmed me in everything. Present of the person just makes me feel that ntg im afraid of.

But then... changed? I just cant be used to it.
My life turns miserable.
Every night.

Now, I am doing everything by myself. Thx to some of my friends. Peiwen for de support, Vie Cheong for de entertainment, Yik Jun for the moral support. They are always present when i need help. Thx again to you all.

I am active in the outside, and quiet in the home. Sometimes i juz have to pretend to be happy infront of friends even im not happy. I think im growing right? Still rmb last time? I not happy then i will express my feelings to everyone. No matter who. But now i did changed isnt it?

I did some work on self control. For everything. Dont burn the whole forest for a single tree? I absorb it like a sponge into my mind. And i did it.
To my teachers, my recent being may upset or maybe disapponting u all..
But it doesnt mean i am just like dat.
I will bounce back. Wait and see. I promised myself to make u crushed your own spec with my trial result. I promised.

So I am working on Chemistry recently.
My revision is up to Organic CHem. BENZENE. Hope everything goes according to my plan.

So im learning to be independant. M last act for independent tonight.
GOOD LUCK TO MYSELF! CHyang told ning chyang take care!! qiang told ningchyang to sleep tight! IMba CHyang told ningchyang to add oil !! GOOD NIGHT